I realised something today...

I realised the reason I cry is not only because we're fighting, but also because I'm scared to lose him. Tonight I almost did, and it made me think one thing...Why do I never think? From now on I'm gonna start thinking so much it takes me 10 minutes to do anything. I really hate ruining things, or arguing every evening. I love Adam Charles Eland more than anything in this world, and anything I could imagine. If I lost him, I'd do ANYTHING to get him back, if I lost him, I'd be completely incomplete. I love him. I really do love him. It hurts to breathe when I'm not with him, and a pain in my chest tells me I'm too attached. Love is about being attached. I may seem addicted, I may seem clingy, I may be completely devoted, but atleast I give a toss. He is the center of my universe, and my friends infact complete it. <3 I love Morgan. She's amazing. I hate falling out with her, everything about us bugs eachother, but so what? If we have nice, healthy fights, we'll be ok in the end. It's the love between friends and DEFINATELY soul mates that matters. I know I'll be with Adam forever and always, and if not...Who am I kidding? There isn't an 'If not'. xx

You know I love you.

In the best of times, you know I love you. In the worst of times, don't ever doubt it. Adam Charles Eland, my heart is forever yours and I hold you close to my chest; you are most dearly loved. I owe everything to you, and I'd hate for us to be apart. I take your word for it when you say we never will be, but it makes me love you a whole lot more, knowing that you're there. I cry when you leave. I cry when a part of you is missing. I cry when things aren't right. I cry when I can't sleep, because I'm thinking about you. I cry whenever you mention the IDEA of you leaving me, or me leaving you. It's something I would never do, and I can't bear the thought of it. I'm sorry I scare you. I'm sorry I upset you. I'm sorry I make you angry. I'm sorry I make you hurt. But the truth is I don't mean any harm, I don't mean any of it. I love you. x

Adam Charles Eland.

Forever in my heart,
A dream away from being able to say it straight.
I love you, I can't explain how much,
I can't explain how or why.
Just that being without you,
Was driving me insane.
I had to tell you sometime,
I had to tell you soon.
I love you Adam Charles,
I love everything you do.
From the moment we said 'I love you',
I knew we'd be forever.
Just took some time to get there,
and some trust to build.
Spaces to fill and reassurance to cover,
but we made it through with some bumps.
Now we're happier than ever,
can't be apart no longer,
I love you Adam Charles Eland,
I want to be with you forever!

Jessica Perks, Forever and Always. x